This week Nicky – completely by
accident – hit me in the eye and I have a black eye.
If this happened with my
daughter, I would be find. Because it’s
Nick and it’s aggression - which is his E ticket out of society - I’m so upset.
I wish I wasn’t, because it WAS an
accident, but I am. for two days I've been asking
myself why? Why am I so upset? And I finally got it. I’m upset because I’m
afraid. Afraid if he’s aggressive at school, in a park, anywhere but here at
home other people will not be so understanding or forgiving.
He won’t get the same benefit of the doubt given a typical person. I’m afraid as I “imagine” what could happen to
him. How do I protect him. This spiral is going nowhere. I have to tell myself to stop.
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