Friday, December 24, 2010
The Holidays...Don't Fall For the Fantasy!
I can’t believe I fell for it again! It’s Christmas Eve morning, our day begins quietly, Nicky slept all night and he’s in a good mood. We are enjoying a wonderful morning. He's alert and I'm getting the amazing gift of connection as we snuggle and talk.
Then it's time to go downstairs, I begin cooking, getting ready for tomorrow’s Christmas dinner. I’m happy and I want it to be a great day for both the kids. Nicky asks “Video? Elf?”. We love Elf, I love Elf. Elf reminds me of Nicky, pure sweet and not appreciated by the mass’s. Being in the Christmas Spirit I say “Yes, just no rewinding”.
Thirty minutes later my son is in full meltdown. He wants more video, he wants to rewind, he’s hysterical when I say “No”. He’s hitting his body on the floor, tears are streaming from his eyes and he can’t settle down. I can’t believe I fell for the “It’s Christmas, give him a break” story!
It’s taken me an hour to get him calm. He’s in bed now and I’m thinking about hitting my body on the floor for being such a peanut brain. I KNOW BETTER!!!! I know Nicky can’t handle watching video’s. I can’t believe I let myself get sucked into my own little holiday illusion; today we would be magically transported to storybook land and Nicky would be free of all of his autism behaviors because it’s a holiday! Wake up mama! I know holidays are not different than any other day. I know videos are Nicky’s heroine and there is no good day for heroine! DUH.
Okay, that's over. Now it's time to go back to having a good day and there’s always tomorrow.